i.u.us!! xD

02 november; 2005.

i know, my visit's long overdueee. i'm sorry, but uhhh, i'm getting quite a bit freaked out by the impending exams. i feel like i'm picking my own brains apart just to understand and re-learn everything i learnt over the past 2 years.

and what kinda stupid media company is that la. nvm, now you have more time to blog!! (okay my apologies for how bimbotic and ridiculous i sound; this is the cost of production - of revision. HAHAHAH. okay not funny. i knowwww.)

don't worry about the cold calls la. i know i'd be a difficult customer to call like that, i'd probably hang up on you before you got beyond the basic introduction. HAHAH well i'm just glad you don't have the makings of an annoying saleswomannn. teehee!

and i love the little guy floating around on your post la!! where did you get it, how do you do it??? (tech-idiot asking the tech-expert here. HAHAHAHA.)

-squeee back! (LOL.) we need a phone date soon. WHEN'RE YOU FREEEEEE??? (who cares about the a's, for an hour i think i can talk to my best friend.)

if you have read this far, pretend you didn't see the last sentence okay. ;)

aren't they cute??? i have no idea who they are, but i want kids this cute in future! -gushes. :)))

and now, it is time. to hit the (insert any word implying annoyance of the most extreme kind) books.

love you dannn. :)

lizzyy boinkkked @ 14:15

holla, lizz, you are probably indefinintely going to taupok me because i havent been blogging in this blog, which seems to be doing fine since i see a coupla new posts. --squeeeee >D

aaanyway.

i got fired [sorta] from the media company because they said i couldnt commit and wasnt willing to make cold calls. basket full of kantangs! o_0 im a real chicken when it comes to making cold calls, sue me. *sniffs rejectedly

so now i am still working at ben+jerry's at united square, WHEN ARE YOU COMING TO VISIT ME, because you know, as a best friend your arrival has been long overdue ;_;

laaa, school will be starting in approx 5 days and i have no timetable yet! neither do i know what class i am in next semester! kudos to the planning team, what wonderful efficiency!

lizz, havent been able to contact you for some time now, ah pish.

dan <3

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dan boinkkked @ 12:14

21 october; 2005.

for once in my life - vonda shepard

for once in my life i've someone who needs me
someone i've needed so long
for once unafraid I can go where life leads me
and somehow i know i'll be strong

for once i can touch what my heart used to dream of
long before i knew
someone warm like you
would make my dreams come true

for once in my life i won't let sorrow hurt me
not like it's hurt me before
for once i've something i know won't desert me
and i'm not alone anymore

for once i can say: "this is mine you can't take it"
as long as i know i've got love i can make it
for once in my life i've got someone who needs me

love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. -Kay Knudsen

so this is where we are now. i still don't see what you see in me, but i'm glad you see whatever it is; because of that something, i'm more complete than before.

:)))

lizzyy boinkkked @ 21:25

18 october; 2005.

here for you --firehouse

so you think you've got it all figured out
well you know you can't make it alone
everybody needs somebody to help them out
and you know i could be that someone
and if you ever get lost on life's highway
don't know where to go
there's just one thing that i want you to know

i am here for you, always here for you
when you need a shoulder to cry on
someone to rely on, i am here for you

so you think that love is long overdue
tired of looking for someone to care
let me tell you know the choice is up to you
but you know i will always be there

- lois lane didn't fall in love with superman. she fell in love with clark kent.

lizzyy boinkkked @ 22:53

17 october; 2005.

that this world is screwed up is an understatement.

we now know that only losers would engage in a war for which there would never be any winner.

we now know that history will only repeat itself because mankind cannot be bothered to change so someone else's father need not die.

we now know that no matter whether you choose to believe in democracy or communism, nothing may change for you; financial status or otherwise.

we now know that historians are the people who spend their lives collecting and compiling research that wouldn't change a thing because no one cares enough.

we now know, is a book by john lewis gaddis. and is what i just spent a hour reading.

you say knowing the past is the key to the future. as far as i'm concerned, we're still stuck outside the ~~stupid~~ door to our future.

and in case you've been wondering, i'm much better. what happens this friday may prove me wrong, but i'm better.

lizzyy boinkkked @ 13:06

13 october; 2005.

i wish i could just give up on you, on this, on us. but i can't. i sat on the bus and willed myself to say you're not worth the heartache and it doesn't matter. when we got off, i still couldn't find a reason to give up.

i ought to be angry with you. everyone else says so. i can't do that either. the irrationality of this is draining. i exhaust every possible explanation and overanalyse every alternative situation, and yet i always arrive at the same conclusion.

it might not even be because of you i feel this way. in a strange, equally inexplicable way, i think it might be because of God.

"Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance."

- 1 corinthians 13:4-7 (NLT)

so i cried today.
i didn't cry because i'm leaving sa;
i cried at the thought i might be walking out of sa,
without you.

lizzyy boinkkked @ 19:09

12 october; 2005.

i'm sorry. for taking this so seriously. for making you cry. i'm really really sorry. i guess this is what people call the rough patch. i don't know what will happen a week from now. but it's a strange sense of peace i have about whatever decision you make cos i know it's in His hands. i think i'm more sure now about how i feel, about you. about us.

i'm not saying this to pressure you. i know you need time, and i know that above how i feel, i want us to both choose what He wants, cos i know above everything else, He truly knows what's best, for us both.

i love you. if not in the romantic sense, i know i love you even more dearly as a friend, and as a brother in Him. and i guess this is where what Thoreau said is true: there is no remedy for love but to love more.

whatever happens, please don't forget that's how i feel.

and i can't believe i announced that so openly. oh well.

:)))

lizzyy boinkkked @ 20:43

09 october; 2005.

i maintain that i never planned, never wanted this to happen. and now this is happening, why am i not angry with you? i swear, i'm wearing my heart on my sleeve like i've never done before. and now i feel like i walked into a brick wall, heart and all.

you know that feeling when you feel like laughing and crying? that scary "shoot i must be schizo" feeling? well i've actually fulfilled that feeling a few times over the weekend.

i don't think it's anyone's fault. and i don't want to be selfish about this, but please don't treat this like multiple-choice.

i suppose, as geri richard put it so, profoundly, "i just don't understand life sometimes."

lizzyy boinkkked @ 07:10